I have never gotten over i guessa.. braekup?

Well I met this guy in a law enforcement cl and I didn’t really know him that well I just thought he was kinda cute and all. I referred to him as the guy who could do the most pushups in till I knew his name his name is Fabian. Then one day my mom received a text message from Fabian and it seemed weird to me that he got my cell number and it read “ hey erika I hope you don’t mind but I got your number from the LT” I though he got it for someone to remind him when the meetings were so I was fine with it till the next day I saw my LT and asked him if he gave my number out to anybody. He said no and I was like well Fabian texted me and said he got my number from him and he was surprised and he said I didn’t give your number out to anybody. So then I just left a couple of weeks past by and I received another text from him that said “ hey erika its me I just wanted to say I love you and I will always love you no matter what if your mom finds this text just delete it but always remember that I love you” I was like wow!!! I was really exited and I was thrilled cause this really cute guy said I love you and showed my that he loved me but my mom found it and of course I got screwed ! Lol well at first this was kinda weird to me because I never talked to this guy he never talked to me and so all of a sudden he texts me saying that he loves me? Well the days went on we exchanged email address and chatted for awhile we would call well I would call him and he would sped hours on the phone. One night we were talking about how witch were our favorite songs and favorite bands. He sand to me his favorite songs and that night I had a lot of fun he even told me that he wanted to take me to the movies and all did he ever?…..no he didn’t . then one day I got my courage to ask him about the text he sent me because he acted like he wanted to be my boyfriend but I wasn’t so sure which way to take it in so I asked him and he said that he did not remember any text and he chucked and said he would never send that to anybody and it doesn’t even sound like something he would say. That’s when I felt so awful I felt so stupid. For thinking that way . Then I didn’t ask him or talk to him for a while then it all started over again we would talk and email and talk endlessly on the phone he would always come to my tennis practices and practice with me. The days went on and my 15th birthday was just around the corner so I asked him if he would join me and he said of course! We had a blast when I saw him and he saw me in my beautiful dress, he said wow you look so beautiful. I blushed and said thank you. That birthday was such a blast that I would never forget it. Now it was almost Christmas and we had to help out the Christmas parade and direct traffic. I was there and he was there to with some other guys. Then that’s when everything started to fall apart. I realized that he was always talking and checking out other girls in stead of helping me direct traffic and handle the angry mob in front of me he would just stand there. Then he started talking to me telling me what was wrong he would slap my but in front of everyone I was shocked he would do something like that to me in uniform and in front of EVERYONE! Then my sergeant comes over and tells me to hold off the crowd for a while then he goes and talks to Fabian. I get angry then afterwards this officer tells me to pick this to go box filled with junk with my bare hands and its all covered in nacho cheese and he says well go on and Fabian and my sergeant stand there watching me, once I look into their eyes I see that they are laughing inside. I bend down and throw it away I mean I wasn’t their to pick up trash and besides if I was they would have given me latex gloves to protect myself. Then I ask Fabian is he has a napkin and I ask my sergeant to if he had one he didn’t and they just laughed in my face and I just felt horrible. Ever since that day I haven’t talked to him. I realized that I was wasting my time trying to impress this guy who was 17 and I was only 15 I mean reality check that wasn’t going to happen. I felt even worse that I thought wrong of him I blame myself for thinking that he liked me but that was just his personality I guess and ever since that I have been crying asking myself what did I do wrong? Is it my fault that this happened to me? I mean I liked him…… I thought he liked me but I thought he wasn’t that kinda of person I always thought that we would do the things we liked like snowboarding and skydiving and singing our favorite songs together. But I just cant get over it I ponder this every second of the day I really need a answer and a solution to get over this is there any one out there to tell me what happened to me and Fabian? Thank you soo much….